So yesterday was a bad day. All I wanted was chocolate and junk. Luckily we don't have too many bad foods left in our house - but I think that almost everything I ate was in the 'average' category. And I couldn't seem to stop snacking.
So today is going to = more work, and less eating. It is hard to change my mindset from 'live to eat' to 'eat to live'. I don't have to give in to my cravings and desires. I don't have to justify it and say 'it's okay, it's sort of healthy anyway.' I am just trying to lie to myself. It does matter.
Now you may say that I am being too hard on myself, and perhaps I am, but I do not want to be controlled by food. I don't want to have to eat comfort foods in order to feel better. So I will forgive myself for yesterday - and move on to today! Today is a new day with no mistakes in it yet. Jesus has given me a clean slate!
So today I am going to do my best to eat because I'm hungry and my body needs nourishment. And I'm sure that in the end my mood will be better for it - because you know what? Eating all those comfort type foods didn't do a thing for me. They didn't stop the craving, they didn't improve my mood.
p.s. I'm not sure why you thought TR couldn't eat pasta. Maybe you're thinking about the Specific Carb. Diet? That is the diet I was considering before I saw this. The SCD is much much much stricter and doesn't include pasta of any kind, potatoes or rice of any kind (along with a bunch of other things)
I'm sorry. But you're right in that comfort eating is only a temporary fix that really doesn't help at all. At least for me. I've been comfort eating my whole life, and I usually still feel depressed when I'm done, and fatter.
ReplyDeleteWhen I decided to try and drink less Pepsi, I had several setbacks, but now I hardly ever have one and don't even finish a can. It takes 3-4 weeks to adjust to new habits. You'll get there, your changing so much at once and thats even harder.
And you may be eating to live, but its ok to enjoy tour food and sometimes live to eat with a favorite snack, but doing it while not depressed(or having a bad day) will be better.
I'm amazed at how well you are doing. It would be very hard for me.
p.s. I just remember you talking about pasta and so I guess I got it confused.
Thanks Leanne! You are so encouraging. You have uplifted me once again :)
ReplyDeleteYour welcome. I hope today was better.
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